Part 3 Chapter 6

I have no choice but to believe in everything Big Brother says and does. I silently sketch "2+2=5" and believe it with all my heart and soul. I saw Julia again, and we both agreed to not continue our relationship. I convince and reassure myself of Big Brother's greatness and I learn to put my trust into his every action.

Part 3 Chapter 5

O'Brien took me to Room 101 today... I sat there trapped in a chair with a cage full of rats next to me. I was taunted and abused and forced to say that I'd rather have Julia go through with this instead of myself. I know I didn't mean it. I would never say such a thing, or mean such a thing.

Part 3 Chapter 4

I do not know what to feel. I write down Party slogans to force myself to try and believe them, but I just can't. I tell myself I love Big Brother, but I know I don't. I told O'Brien I hated Big Brother because I do. They told me I am to be taken into Room 101...

Part 3 Chapter 3

O'Brien forced me to look in the mirror at myself. So I did, with all the courage I had left in me and I wept. I couldn't believe the reflection I saw in the mirror because it wasn't me. I looked sad, lost, and grey. I am only bones. This is all because of O'Brien.

Part 3 Chapter 2

O'Brien was the only one that stopped the pain from happening. He forced me to believe everything he said, and eventually I did. Everything O'Brien says is a fact, and I must not argue otherwise. But worst of all, O'Brien said that Julia had betrayed me... I still try to refuse to believe it. I believe it because it stops the pain.

Part 3 Chapter 1

I sit here alone...except for four telescreens. Just as everything has been starting to look up for me, with Julia. Now all is lost. I sit here alone.. although it is never dark in here. I am beaten and Julia is too, and I cannot stand the thought of it.

Part 1

I live in a distopian society filled with grey colors and sadness. Will I ever be able to escape?

I am constantly being watched, even during the darkest times. I no longer see a reason to live in such a horrible and depressing world. It isn't fair for anyone to have to go through any of this.

Will I ever be able to escape?

Part 2 Chapter 10

I feel betrayed and lost, once again. Mr. Charrington is a part of the Thought Police. The telescreen heard me and Julia. She was beaten.

Is there still a reason to live?

Part 2 Chapter 9

I am exhausted and in the middle of HATE WEEK, we have decided to switch enemies...

Part 2 Chapter 8

We travelled to O'Brien's today. He turned off the telescreen. At first, I panicked. How could he do such a thing? But then I felt a weird sense of calmness because I knew no one else was watching.

O'Brien says we will meet again one day.

Part 2 Chapter 7

I remembered, I remembered everything about my mother. I feel saddened and overwhelmed at my sudden knowledge of my past... and my mother.

Julia and I fear of being captured and tortured because of the crimes we have committed together.... but I will never stop loving her.

Part 2 Chapter 6

Finally! O'Brien and I have spoken. I felt anxious because I didn't know what to expect, but excited and thrilled at the fact that O'Brien finally met up with me. I fear that I will be led to the Ministry of Love because of my rebellious actions and thoughts.

Part 2 Chapter 5

I talk to Julia a lot, and I feel open around her. I tell her about O'Brien. I tell her that I feel so close with him and friendly.

I thought about Katherine, and imagined her dead.

Because that will be the only way I'll ever be able to marry Julia.

Part 2 Chapter 4

I feel lost and empty without Julia. I haven't been able to see her recently, which frustrates me. I found myself watching Julia put her makeup on.... she is beautiful. How have I become so lucky to be with a girl like Julia?

Part 2 Chapter 3

I have met with Julia a few times recently. She told me enjoys herself and likes to rebel against the party itself. I love being around her and I feel like I can tell her anything.

So, I told her about the walk I took with Katherine.

Part 2 Chapter 2

We met again in the country... I did not know what to expect. I felt anxious and excited all at the same time. I worried we would be seen by a telescreen, or heard by a microphone.

We made love for the very first time in the woods.

She excites me in a way I never thought was possible because I have never felt this way about anyone before.

Part 2 Chapter 1

I feel renewed. I have something to live for: love. She told me she loves me. How can I comprehend such strong words into something that makes sense to me?

We met in Victory Square, and I held her hand.

I have something to live for.