Part 3 Chapter 6

I have no choice but to believe in everything Big Brother says and does. I silently sketch "2+2=5" and believe it with all my heart and soul. I saw Julia again, and we both agreed to not continue our relationship. I convince and reassure myself of Big Brother's greatness and I learn to put my trust into his every action.

Part 3 Chapter 5

O'Brien took me to Room 101 today... I sat there trapped in a chair with a cage full of rats next to me. I was taunted and abused and forced to say that I'd rather have Julia go through with this instead of myself. I know I didn't mean it. I would never say such a thing, or mean such a thing.

Part 3 Chapter 4

I do not know what to feel. I write down Party slogans to force myself to try and believe them, but I just can't. I tell myself I love Big Brother, but I know I don't. I told O'Brien I hated Big Brother because I do. They told me I am to be taken into Room 101...

Part 3 Chapter 3

O'Brien forced me to look in the mirror at myself. So I did, with all the courage I had left in me and I wept. I couldn't believe the reflection I saw in the mirror because it wasn't me. I looked sad, lost, and grey. I am only bones. This is all because of O'Brien.

Part 3 Chapter 2

O'Brien was the only one that stopped the pain from happening. He forced me to believe everything he said, and eventually I did. Everything O'Brien says is a fact, and I must not argue otherwise. But worst of all, O'Brien said that Julia had betrayed me... I still try to refuse to believe it. I believe it because it stops the pain.

Part 3 Chapter 1

I sit here alone...except for four telescreens. Just as everything has been starting to look up for me, with Julia. Now all is lost. I sit here alone.. although it is never dark in here. I am beaten and Julia is too, and I cannot stand the thought of it.

Part 1

I live in a distopian society filled with grey colors and sadness. Will I ever be able to escape?

I am constantly being watched, even during the darkest times. I no longer see a reason to live in such a horrible and depressing world. It isn't fair for anyone to have to go through any of this.

Will I ever be able to escape?